a big challenge

Try something never tried – may sound thrilling. …Well, not really.

I said no to the offer because [1] that’s the way I always do, [2] I didn’t like it, and [3] I didn’t think it was possible. Even after I turned it down, it was still there, but I didn’t care because to me it was not something to be complied. The conversation freezed.

I have to admit, however, that it had been bothering me for weeks. Friends said the offer is not really a bad one.

A little while later, I noticed that I had so many “rules” when I happened to break one of them. It was so painful first, but I tried to process what I was seeing. I thought I shouldn’t close my eyes but face to it. Then I found it being not a bad experience.

So I changed my mind and accepted the offer. It doesn’t mean the offer itself turned into something preferable, but I decided to launch a project to see if I could overcome it. It’ll be worth it. If it gets too harsh, I can always back out of it. I’ll get nothing unless I try.

“What would I do if I weren’t afraid?”
Who moved my cheese? by Spencer Johnston.